So I am getting fired from Starbucks tomorrow. I am not supposed to know, but I do and I am not looking forward to my meeting tomorrow with the District Manager. It was a stupid unlucky situation on my behalf and Starbucks apparently does not care about employees that have worked for them for 3 years with nothing on their record. They don't care about my side of the story and to them I am grateful for the push to now be a stay at home mom. I just hope that this is part of the works for a much greater outcome. I have come to peace with living at Jesse's parents the rest of my life (kind of) and will cherish spending every moment of every day with my growing son. He is worth the mistakes that have brought me to this point. But I do need encouragement since I was already in a weak state, my emotions on this are all over the grid. 

So, now that I have lots of free time, lets play!

Things have been good in the Moore household. Jude is growing like a tumbleweed and developing the best personality. Jesse just got home last night from a trip to Long Beach...screen printing convention. Boy did Jude and I miss him. Jude is so used to crawling all over him in the morning and yesterday morning you could see the disappointment in Jude's face that he was not there. So we are excited about spending time together as a family today. 

Jude Update: He loves to rub his tongue on his teeth, so his little tongue is always hanging out of his face. He likes to dance, if you sing or he hears music he starts bouncing. It's the most adorable thing ever. I am sure it's all the Yo Gabba Gabba we have him watch. He is also really into pushing his toys across the floor; tupperware, his piano, boxes and rocks. Anything really. He is also standing for very short periods of time. Sometimes it seems he is just going to walk over to you. And for some reason that seems normal. I was walking at 9 months, so we shall see. 

I have many pictures to update with, but no time to do it. But I will try hard to get those up for you all. 

Jude's top and center tooth just popped it's head through today....he will have three teeth for Christmas!!

Jude is crawling all over the place. He is getting better and better at it everyday. He climbs into things, over things and is trying to climb up things, which brings us to the new thing...pulling and pushing to standing. He will even let go and stand for a second before falling onto his butt. He doesn't cry though, he's pretty tough. One of the more annoying, although sometimes cute thing is making a really spitty "tthhhh" sound. He will do this forever and right in your face. We do it back, but he likes it. Weirdo. 

I am pretty sure the top tooth is coming in. He is rubbing his bottom teeth onto the top gums a lot, and I can see a little white speck becoming bigger and bigger. I am pretty excited about these teeth and moving on to more solids. He is a little pro now with eating his solid foods. I don't have a high chair, so we sit down on a blanket and he is just so cute. Opens really wide when the food comes and isn't that messy. I am sure it will get messy as he gets older. :) But for now, I really enjoy feeding him this way. He had Winter Squash today when I got home from work. 

I will have to post some new photos soon, it is hard to find the time. 

Jude crawled yesterday. Three crawls to mommy and then face plant. It was a very celebrated moment. He has been doing 2-3 crawls all day today. He has places to go and things to see. 

I am once again hopeful. My son is amazing and I have a wonderful husband, and in laws that really care about us. I just put Christmas lights up inside and Jesse and Cale put lights outside. I am feeling the holiday spirit, and it is good. I called on another house today, well, apartment. I am optimistic and really looking forward to a call back. It's supposed to be much more within our budget, although very unattractive. 

I am so tired of feeling hopeless.